This is My Dad

                I've got to be honest, i never had the best life nor the best father. I've grown up thinking that my father doesn't want me in his life. Never has he told me those three words. He never even called me his daughter. Life was hard, thinking that your own parents doesn't even care about you. Actually, that has striven me to do better in every way i can. I tried to be a great student. I made the top 5 of our class but that still wasn't enough for them.

                For the past 14 years, nothing changed. Everything was even worse. My father kept scolding me. He was always drunk and said so many awful things to me. I didn't show the slightest bit of concern when he says it. But i can't help myself but cry when no one is looking. It just made my life worse. This made me strive to be a better person. I studied as hard as i can. But still, I only made it to top 3. I said to myself, this is enough, maybe they will learn to love me. But nothing changed. I made a conclusion that no matter what i do, i can't change that fact. I gave up, I didn't want to do this anymore. I started to stop doing my best. Being part of the top 10 was a thing of the past for me now. I wanted to be the worst daughter that they could have.
           
                My father never shows any love and concern for me. He doesn't show the slightest bit of interest in the things that i do. He is so strict and scary when he gets angry. He made my life harder than what it actually is. But i cant do anything about this, i just have to live with it. I don't even know if he wants me as her daughter.