To You

Dear Kuya Thogie,

                  It has been a while since the day you've left CavSci and get to your college school. How are you? I hope you are doing good. What's your course? Are you doing good? Uh, where are you studying? Before there were lots of questions in my mind. For almost a year, it was you who became my reason to go to school and strive harder in studying. I didn't care about what will my friends say if they found out. I've been fine of loving you alone. I got used to hiding it to myself because I was afraid. You do not know me.  Sometimes, I do wonder if you know I exist. Right, until now. I was very sad when I learned that you got a girlfriend. That was the time I cried to my friends. I couldn't contain the feelings. I feel like exploding. And honestly I felt some kind of anger to you and to myself. It was mistake for loving you more than you could ever love me. I'm still here, in the place you've left me. I don't want to wait anymore. But I just want to tell you the feelings I once had, thought it was real, but then it just became a part of my high school journey. Thank you for inspiring me to work harder. I've realized greater things to do in life. Don't worry. I'm fine. Take care always. :)

Love,
Allysa Mae